Welcome, @skrunchpuff. From someone who also read only for themselves first. Eleven years of self-reading is real, and it is also its own box. When the reading is for you, you already know the ending, so the cards tend to get read backward from what you had already decided. You do not notice until someone else sits across from you. That is the day you find out which of your interpretations belonged to the deck and which were just you. It is a good day. Glad you are here.